rain and dread

Ugh. I hate religion.

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Where did I leave off? I was so tired Saturday and Sunday. I napped both days. I've slacked off going to bed at a decent hour lately (during the week), and I worked out 6 days last week. The fucking rain didn't help. I'm so tired of rain. It rained all weekend because I planned to wash my filthy car. Yep. And I'd painted my toe nails.

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My sister's mom gave me her cell number. She mentioned it to her first, in case she didn't want to talk to me. She said I could call, she didn't mind. (WTF?) I want to call her just to let her know I'm here, and I care about her, but I kind of dread it. Our conversations were already full of awkward silences, and now I'm afraid they will be worse. I have to pretend I don't know about the abuse. I refuse to act excited about the baby. I'm not excited about babies, even when they're not being brought into such a fucked up situation. I did find out that she's having a boy. I hope her baby daddy doesn't influence the kid's attitudes toward working, money, women, anger, relationships, respect...

So I meant to call Friday or over the weekend, but I was either busy, napping, or dreading it.

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Nothing like a pair of just-washed pants to make one feel fat. Good thing the bright ass shirt I wore (yesterday) was too large in the torso. If it had been much smaller in the shoulder/chest area, I'd have had to pin it. And the arms were tight, too. Geez.

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Not much else going on. Going to see M@stodon in Birmingham next month with my brother. I told Stacey and she laughed. I asked what she was laughing about and she said something like, "Oh, there'll be a bunch of nerds there." WTF? I said, Good, we'll fit right in! She's a DragonCon nerd, so what does she know?

How nerdy would it be if I wore one of the OLD M3tallica shirts I still have? I guess given their status in the past 10 years, probably not a good idea. But come on! Kill 'Em All? Shortest Straw? Classics!