I skipped class again on Thursday. So that's about two weeks. Yikes. The first week I was really sick, the second I couldn't stop coughing. My abs and diaphragm were actually sore from coughing. Lovely. I figured I was having so many coughing fits that I'd just cough the entire time in class if I went. Not good. Luckily I haven't gained any weight. I'm sure I've lost a little muscle and probably cardiovascular fitness, though. Dammit. Seems this always happens. I get to a point where I'm improving (jogging more, doing better while sparring, doing more push ups), and I get knocked down a peg. Annoying.
On Friday I worked from home, took Buzz to the vet again, caught up on my DVR, and not much else. On Saturday, I skipped class again (yeah, if I'm not ready for Monday or Thursday, I'm certainly not ready for Saturday). I took a load of clothes to the consignment shop, but didn't shop there. Went to Targ3t and got a few things on clearance. Nothing exciting.
On Sunday, I spent a lot of time digging in the dirt. I re-potted the violet, the orchid, and the mini rose bush. The violet has always done well, so no problem there. The orchid has not bloomed in a couple years now. I need to do more research on that. I was surprised by the abundance of healthy roots on it when I took it out of the old bark. This is a good sign, I hope. There are also new leaves, but that is nothing new. The leaves are not discolored except for a yellow tinge on an older leaf, but I read that this is not a concern. I'm giving it and the roses one more shot. The roses bloomed a little after re-potting last year, and continue to grow new branches and leaves, but no buds.
I skipped re-potting the jade plant, as it will be a bigger undertaking. I had some rot last year that caused breakage in the rather large plant I had going, so I ended up potting four separate pieces in a smaller pot. Now those are getting big, so I need to go back to the huge pot it was in before. Not sure if the pieces are growing together or separately now. We'll see. I'll pot whatever is there, though, unless someone wants a piece. I love those plants. So lush and pretty.
Oh, yeah. I posted this pic with a comment my Dad had made about people thinking a witch lives there if we didn't plant flowers.
Well, we do have flowers, just not at the moment. The butterfly bush and day lilies will be blooming soon. But now, we have orange and yellow Asiatic lilies. Woo. I've wanted to plant them before, but could never find enough at one store, especially in orange. We're planting about 10 in front of each maple tree in the flower bed. They are so fucking bright, especially in the rain and gloom on Sunday.
(I should also note that the grass in the lower left corner is a type for which my husband has a Hank Hill-like obsession with getting rid of completely. He's almost there.)
But then Jeff had to mess with my OCD by spending 30 minutes arranging and rearranging them, and then only planting one side. He ended up going out to get more later, but they aren't planted yet. It was getting chilly out.
So yeah. Buzz's blood sugar was off the charts again. I thought it would be better! He was eating more, coming out of hiding more, etc. So we upped his dosage again. And then, he promptly starts eating less. Hmm. Hopefully this week will be better.
I have to get into this. I'm still trying to wrap my mind around it. I've looked repeatedly for an old friend of mine (one of several I've looked for) on My$pace and Fac3book. This one in particular, I knew I wanted to contact should I ever find her. She lived in my old neighborhood. We went to middle and high school together. I would tell Dad I was spending the night with her, then we'd be out at all hours at parties, the game room, etc. One particular time, I got caught not at her house as I'd said I'd be. (Not the only time this happened.)
Anyway. I saw her again a few years after we got married, and hung out with her for an unpredictable afternoon. She had her son by then. Well now she has three kids and a different last name. I found her through someone else's friends list. What I saw on her page floored me, and creeped me out, and disappointed me. Every single status update devolved into a bible quote or a prayer of some sort, even the mundane things. I certainly do not begrudge anyone their religion, or lack thereof, but damn. It was even more shocking considering our past adventures. Jeff was even surprised.
I was/am flummoxed. I asked for Leigh and B's opinions. My consensus was that if she was that extreme in her updates, she would likely be that way in person, and I don't want that in my life. Now, I should have known, given the particular person through whom I found her. She is also an old friend and much the same way.
I do have at least one deeply religious friend. Granted, I don't associate with her offline much any more, but I would be willing. She does occasionally post religious things, but they don't have that fervor or fanaticism. Her life may be all about that, but she isn't defined by it solely.
I am still going over this in my head. I really want to ask my religious friend's opinion. Does she think this will attract people to her or her religion? Is it a mental issue? Is it in response to some past trauma or hardship? I'm really curious. And still disappointed. And what does that say about me?
I finally went to class on Monday. It was a struggle. My punches lost strength, I choked during the warm up (and later, and ran out of cough drops, which were only minimally helpful), had trouble breathing, couldn't get my feet to cooperate, etc. After one drill, I said, "That was a demonstration of just how far I've fallen." I'll get it back. It felt good to hit stuff again, though.
Downside - There's a younger girl in there, possibly still a teenager, and she is tiny. She's cool, though. She had her even skinnier friend in there last night, and I felt like a pale, lumpy, hulking blob next to them. I try to push thoughts like that out of my mind, but it's hard. Especially when I feel like I've lost so much ground. The number on the scale hasn't changed, but I know I'm not as toned as I was 2 weeks ago, and even that wasn't that much.
Enough of that.
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